It's been quite a while! I'm amazed how quickly life can overtake us. The last few months I've been working my tail off: bouncing from meeting to meeting, from job to job, from moment to moment, and I've been convicted about how I spend the time I do have for myself. As I was reflecting on how my days, weeks and months have panned out, I couldn't help but think about all of the time I've wasted, all of the opportunities I've missed, all of the hearts I've overlooked.
Then the excuses come in. Look at how busy you are! You're juggling a full-time job, a life of ministry and a family. You should take every free moment you have for yourself. You deserve it.
I'm amazed at how convincing those arguments can be.
I'm ashamed at how easily they have swayed me.
I've come to the point where the accepted is no longer acceptable. Where the truth must destroy the lies.
My heart's laziness is thrown out on the table. Even though there aren't many opportunities for it to develop, the core has been hardened by my own selfishness.
And ministry isn't a convenient occurrence. It doesn't happen on my time-frame. It can't flourish when it has to fit in from 6:00-8:00 on Tuesdays.
It is a life.
I'm trying to wake up with that realization. That today is another chance to build the Kingdom. As my mind refreshes with this revelation, I can feel my heart soften. I can see my relationships begin to grow again.
I realize this is more of a "Confessions" post, but I wanted to get this out there. Maybe you will be encouraged and challenged. I hope you will continue to hold me accountable and encourage me when you see me fall.
Let's do this together.
